Thank you, Kawa. If that hits you anywhere near as hard as it does me, I can't imagine that was an easy read, but I appreciate it. *hugs tight*

I honestly don't know if I've even processed enough of my anxiety and the causes thereof to have a panic attack around them. I'm still pretty dysfunctional as far as actually reacting in the ways that actually make sense for a given situation. :/ Either way, I'm not going near that again. There's just way too much pain and damage.

And I see that word you used. And I respect and return it, fully. <3