It Could be the Stop

[zetasyanthis]

It could be the stop;
I could be the start;
This panic attack
puts bolts in my heart.

I can't find the bottom;
I can't find the sand;
I am just now drowning;
I can't find the land.

I shame and in shadow,
in brutalist dark,
I can't find my heartstrings;
I can't find my heart.

I'm lost and in shadow
and deep inside storm;
It takes all I have now
to prevent self-harm.

And maybe one day
And maybe one morn
I won't have these torrents;
I won't have these storms.