Poem: I Cannot Find

[zetasyanthis]

I cannot feel my heart right now;
I cannot feel the truth;
Behind my eyes the suicide;
the stained and bloody earth.

I cannot feel the pain right now;
I cannot feel the birth;
as my blood drains I cry at last
for death surmised in mirth.

I cannot rate my risk right now;
I cannot answer true;
I do not know where at I am;
I'm still lying to you.