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Progress, and Coming Out
Jul. 30th, 2016 04:41 pmProgress, and Coming Out
This Thursday marked 10 weeks since I started HRT. It's been a little rocky (my anxiety in particular increasing with all the rest of my emotional content), but overall, it's been a shocking improvement. Even my therapist has been surprised, and that's to say nothing for the what the additional connection as allowed me to accomplish *in* therapy itself.
I'm going to talk about that more at some point here, maybe even in the next few days, but for now, I'm out. Speaking quietly to a coworker on Tuesday, I was met with such a depth of empathy and trust that I can still barely believe it happened. He was sad, though, as he was retiring Friday, and didn't expect to meet the actual me before he left. So... I changed that. I wasn't really planning it, didn't really think it through as much as I could have, but I took the leap. I'm Zeta now, really. The paperwork hasn't caught up yet, but it will in time, and that's what matters.
As for the rest, I leave you with some trimmed tweets from the last few weeks, including some from my private feed. I love you all, and I could never have done this without you. <3
Jun 11:
Found something tonight. Something wonderful... and something terrible.
I may have just felt (and recognized) love directed at me for the first time.
I... don't have words for that.
June 16:
I know I may just be growing breasts, but it feels like I'm growing wings.
July 20:
I swear... I probably have the best chance I've ever had of becoming a safe, functioning human being. HRT is doing *so much* towards that.
And I'm not even talking physically right now, just emotionally. This is unbelievable beyond even my best hopes. >.<
So much love. <3
Thank you. For everything. <3
This Thursday marked 10 weeks since I started HRT. It's been a little rocky (my anxiety in particular increasing with all the rest of my emotional content), but overall, it's been a shocking improvement. Even my therapist has been surprised, and that's to say nothing for the what the additional connection as allowed me to accomplish *in* therapy itself.
I'm going to talk about that more at some point here, maybe even in the next few days, but for now, I'm out. Speaking quietly to a coworker on Tuesday, I was met with such a depth of empathy and trust that I can still barely believe it happened. He was sad, though, as he was retiring Friday, and didn't expect to meet the actual me before he left. So... I changed that. I wasn't really planning it, didn't really think it through as much as I could have, but I took the leap. I'm Zeta now, really. The paperwork hasn't caught up yet, but it will in time, and that's what matters.
As for the rest, I leave you with some trimmed tweets from the last few weeks, including some from my private feed. I love you all, and I could never have done this without you. <3
Jun 11:
Found something tonight. Something wonderful... and something terrible.
I may have just felt (and recognized) love directed at me for the first time.
I... don't have words for that.
June 16:
I know I may just be growing breasts, but it feels like I'm growing wings.
July 20:
I swear... I probably have the best chance I've ever had of becoming a safe, functioning human being. HRT is doing *so much* towards that.
And I'm not even talking physically right now, just emotionally. This is unbelievable beyond even my best hopes. >.<
So much love. <3
Thank you. For everything. <3
